Conversations...

Everyone has dreams. Likewise, you too spoke about dreams. But, you did not elaborate on them. I understand your concerns. I wish to address them at the earliest as well. When people ask me as to why I do not make decisions and bring you to me, I just look at them and take a deep breath and just smile and leave the conversation by patting them casually. Only I know what it is like to face it all. 

I wish to make a phone call. I can make it anytime I want to. But, there are your preferences, dreams, desires and most of all, your words that have confined me to a shell. When people come and ask me as to why I did not enjoy everything with you and dump you, I just get up from such people and remind them that they do not have a Life to live and neither do they have a Loved one with them for Life. 

There are people who mistake me to be of your age because of my young appearance. *poking tongue* Of course they mistake my age. But, I take time to explain and when they get to know how I have been patient enough to wait for you, they advice me to show the same patience in everything. I just tell them that I am so impatient at everything because all my patience is invested in you.

I find so many people artificially bonded in the name of marriage and I engage in casual conversations with them to find out how or why did they even get married. Upon analysing, I find that we are far better than them but we are not married yet. Then, I find people who sulk so much for having gotten responsibilities after marriage and I just tell them they would have better off if they had not been born at all. 

In all these conversations, I get frustrated. But, there is a conversation I have with my colleague everyday that keeps me alive and kicking. It is about us, about how we bonded and how special your presence is and how I will just plan my days once you give me a call. We play this game where my colleague would pull me all of a sudden and ask what would I do if I get a call from you or hint or text or see you or meet you and so on. I will just look blank because such thoughts give me the most beautiful feeling inside and I elaborate how I would react. 

This conversation is so special because my colleague knows that I am so upset and feeling isolated on the workfloor and tries to lighten things for me. It is like playing my own tricks to me. I get reminded of how you play the diverting trick you learnt from me on me. And, I will go on and tell how much you matter in my Life. Ah, Bubbles \(^_^)/, you have made me  a totally different person today. 

I am what I am because of you. I will do justice by honestly saying that it applies to both good and bad. If I am suffering it is because of you and if I am living, even that is because of you. One can say it through so many words yet only so little aspects will be actually conveyed out of that. Every time I try to convey about you, I find that there is a flooding of words but I have only touched the tip of the iceberg. 

Hmmmm... Yemo. Yemi chesevo nuvvu?! Hmmmm... -rPhoenix