Best kept secret...

What disturbs us from within has to be thrown out earlier than usual. That is how we evolve. As in, we get this disturbance as love and we speak out. Thus, it vanishes. Likewise, when pain disturbs us, throw it out. It will vanish. Does it? Well, that is what we hope. What if we become a pain magnet and become a pain disposing machine? The chances for the latter are very high. Beware!

I send you out. You are not mine. I throw you out, for, you are not in pain but the pain itself in full glory. How crushing would that sound if you are a recipient of those words? So, throw pain into the universe. Not onto someone else's universe/multiverse. I have heard those words a lot. Not just as words. Even as actions. Does it hurt? Well,.... It hurts. I say it not to generate truck loads of sympathy. I say it to throw it out because holding it in hurts even more. 

I am alone. Yes. Am alone. I fight alone. My opponents are more in number, not in strength. Can I win against them? Well, that was NEVER the question. It is, should I be fighting with them? Yes and no. I choose my battles and how I do it is the best kept secret. How strong am I? I am almost 4 decades worth of being a pain disposer. Will I continue this? No. I am enlightened now. I operate at a... A best kept secret. Isn't it?

What is bothering now? Best kept secrets. Should I throw it out? Does it hurt? Throwing pain on people is wrong. Is throwing people due to pain right or wrong? Well, tricky as it sounds but simple as it is. Throw them after betrayal. Save them until betrayal. I did both. Is this the best kept secret? No. My real pain is. Did I throw it out? Yes, for the pained. No, for the gained. 

Do I feel better? Is it situation critical? Criticality lost its scale for measurement to be precise. Did you get thrown out? I should not care about it. I have to endure until justice is served. Is the secret lost? I think it is better to make it a best kept secret. -rPhoenix