All of you have become a part of my Life. As the calendar shows me different dates and months, I have a countdown for important events and celebrations of our family. Every single memory so etched in our timeline, I wait for this part of the year where our important dates are coming one by one.
I know you might not even care to recall what I am talking about. You seem to have so much hatred on me, I ask myself everyday as to what was so bad in me that I have been orphaned by everyone. Never mind. If that makes all of you celebrate to have defeated or suppressed me, I will be content that somehow this has made you happy.
But, do you know how it feels to be myself? You people consider it a sin to even talk to me. Isn't it? You will not communicate anything, you will not keep me informed about anything, you will always enjoy making me wander in search of you, you seem to be enjoying these. But, by simply hiding yourself, you are killing me. Let me make it very clear to you.
It makes me angry but, I cannot afford to get angry given my stature. It makes me feel so frustrated but I cannot pour it out because you enjoy sitting behind closed doors. It makes me finally feel so helpless that I feel I am stuck inside screaming to myself. What joy does this give to all of you, I will someday figure out.
You have simply shown that consideration for others is simply null in your actions. Otherwise, you will not put anyone in the dark. If you need, you demand for it. So, why not apply the same logic for others? If they need, they should at least be able to access you. It is not because of closing the doors you are safe. It is because the person knocking at the door chooses not to break open the door. Never ever underestimate anyone's potential and pretend to be superceding them.
I am an empowered and enlightened Man today. I agree it is because of you. At the same time, I am a depressed and deprived Man. The reason again points straight to you. I have been seasoned to take hits in Life. I am prepared to see for how long you are keeping me alike in this state of affairs. I am determined to find out what you actually intend to do with me.
Huh! All the above mentioned are my pent up frustrations. I fry them up and toss it into the trash bin. My actual worry is not this. It is about you. What are you upto? How are you? Where are you? Are you even alive? What is your mental and physical state? How do I find out about you? When do I get to know about you?
Where are you? Bubbles \(^_^)/, where are you? What kind of activity are you into now? Uff! You can abandon me. Fine. But, you could have informed me. Just like that, if you choose to remain quiet and stop communicating, do you even think of others? I don't want to find out about others, did you even consider me as a human and say something, anything at all?
For how long do you want to make me suffer and then come back at my words saying they are filled with lament and negativity? Of course, if you treat me alike, I will be lamenting only. So, instead of seeing what I am, try to see why I am alike. It will make more sense.
Yemo, Babe. Ninda kopam'ga undhi. But, at the same time ninda kashtam'ga undhi. And, it all points directly to your silence. Break the silence immediately after you read this. I am pouring out all my concerns here because I am gearing up for celebrating our important dates of the year. I cannot carry all this on my head and celebrate. So, ....-rPhoenix
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