There is a sense of fear catching up. I normally do not let fear get the better hold of me. But, as time draws closer, it certainly gives me a feeling of fear taking hold of me. As I go through days where there has been a level of activity pertaining to something I cannot disclose here, the spine starts to freeze like how I have seen only in animated flicks.
But, fear shall never take complete control of me. I will battle this out. But, of all the fears that I have defeated, this one will go on to be the one that has disturbed me a lot. Why, oh why, I ask myself because I cannot post this question to anyone else. The names that I have been given, of the times that I have come through, I certainly have to fight through and prove them wrong.
In this race to the finish has come a long fought and long thought battle. I am a Gardener and I grow Roses; I am a traveller and I visit places. But, what am I if I keep losing anyone, everyone, anything and everything? Questions of my yore come haunting into my core. Well, justifying anymore will only make me hit the floor.
Fears. Let them do their part. As for me, who respects my shoe size more than these fears, I will continue to battle along. If fear has its purpose defined, I will have mine carved out. A clearly sculpted masterpiece is what I am working on, so that when the time comes, I shall be ready to deliver the final blow. As part of Frantic Diaries, this is one more post and this is the r, signing out. -rPhoenix
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