These set of words are not just words. They are the result of the constant urge to converse with you. I understand your view but that understanding is to acknowledge what you feel. There is something I feel and the same is this urge to be with you. Someday you may feel like reading something from me and maybe that day you may come across these set of words, about the urge to talk to you.
In the absence of your loved one, one should not fall apart to look elsewhere. This lesson will come into your book of Life lessons soon, I hope. It is vital to know that the mutual Life that is looking for you is still alive and looking for you. These are testing times and they are also the learning days. So, once you are done with these, I know we will find everything in place.
Well, I do have my share of lessons that I am taking note of. Learning is a continuous process and I have no regrets to it. Coming back to the urge, yes, you should sit with me for a conversation and only then you will ever know how much I missed it all these days and how this post makes all sense about the urge I am talking about.
Never ever did I doubt you after the day when I was so low in confidence about your presence in Life but how beautifully you said that you will always be with me and how you will take me to those who victimised me and how you would make them understand what a loss it was for them to do such things to me. That..... That, my Lady, gave me so much confidence. But, what are you doing right now? I cannot make out which of these is the real you.
But, all these that we have come across does not bring down the urge to talk to you or be with you. It only aggravates the urge to all new heights. I have done ample number of walks through your lane that every now and then, the gates, the lights, the windows, the doorway, the emotion just flashes in front of my eyes. Every frame plays time and again and I am seeing myself enter the doorway to come and see all of you. It is like the vision that is similar to what comes in "The Gladiator" and I can feel myself entering your place and all the joy and happiness that follows after.
These are not just words. They are the result of the constant urge to converse with you. This is one Life and I will not hesitate to hide my real emotions and thus, they are being documented here. Whether you respect them or not, is a different topic of discussion. But, right now, it is about how much I Miss you and how I have no other place but here, that I drop a fraction of how I feel right now without you. -rPhoenix
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