It has been quite a long time since I have sat at my desk. In fact, I do not have a permanent desk now. The nomadic Life that has been the norm since this year's start is evolving day by day and I have eventually evolved along with it to make sure the posts here are present when it matters. Sometimes I find myself at a loss of words. The loss of words would normally be for a few minutes before I can get a grasp of things and keep the flow going. But, over the past few months it has been a loss of words for a greater period of time. Upon finding my hold over the things, I stumbled upon a realisation that has made me feel a little better for the things that have happened in the past year or so.
Few months ago, I was called upon and served with something that never suited my intentions. Thus, I wanted to breathe till I would come to the day where I will be realising the most powerful truth of all. The person who spoke to me, spoke in such a way that logic was supreme and threw a series of words talking about the impact on a Girl's life. I had so much to tell him at that moment but was denied constantly. But, I firmly believe that truth will always surface someday or the other. It was only a matter of time and I had waited to see it. Coming back to today, the truth is out. It is right here in front of us to take it.
Back then, they said I was spoiling the Life of one Girl. That was sheer nonsense. But, the actual truth is, the person who spoke those words is actually emerging fast to be the person to spoil the Life of a Girl and a Guy. This person who spoke too high about logic will soon realise it for sure. Today, the Life of two young beings is stagnant and it is because of this person. Not just two, this person has been the cause of misery for few more Lives. What is this energy made up of? Why should an energy in the form of a person be so denying others of their happiness?
The answers, I do not have. But, having lived his prime, he should be wise enough to let the next generation live in peace and prosperity. But, I stand here today facing all these hardships. Not just me, I have you with me more or less in the same position. Anyway, I will just wait a little longer and one fine day, I will let this powerful truth out by myself to him. As of now, I wait for self-realisation. If that does not happen, I will inject this truth myself to him. Reason is, if I happen to reach a point where I will not have time to wait for him to realise, I will take this task to my own hands before whatever is inevitable and awaits me at that moment.
Am I angry? Well, yes and no. Anger does not make up the majority in me anymore. It is more of an evolved stance. And, that is more of a threat to these people who have wreaked havoc in my Life. Today, even my near and dear have no words to talk to me. Some even go into hiding. They know everything as it happened but, they only heard of what has happened to me. They did not and do not live it every passing moment. They always make me look at them as if I have to force myself to seek refuge in them. And, when I am about to feel a little secure, they will go into hiding. This, this very feel of being abandoned is what I mean when I say this person has spoilt my Life.
Bubbles, to you I say, whatever you are doing right now thinking that staying away from me is going to help me, is absolutely not happening. In fact, I did not want to write this down but, I am forced to do so because of you going into hiding. I know you have the details to contact me when "you need". But, when "I need", how do I find you? Did you even think about that? I know you can find me when you want to say something. But, what about me? How do I find you? Anyway, the day when you read this, you will know that I have realised this powerful truth and have presented it here as well. Why did I do this? Just in case a scenario arises where neither self-realisation nor myself being able to nail this to him, I know you will. You know how I do my back-ups? This is just like them. I am just making sure that no matter what, the person who spoils the life of others has to pay for it. Neither you nor the previously affected ones will dare to make him realise. But, I will. I have.
The more the clock ticks, the more uncertain my days are. This suffering that I am subject to and the impact on you due to the same will never go unanswered. The numbness that I have inside will not go waste. I know you will rise one day to stand against this prevailing tyranny and when that day comes, this powerful truth will be of help. I hope it is not too late to spell doom upon us. To forget and forgive, I am not a saint. Neither are you. Also, we were not denied of a fancy pencil box to just forget and forgive. You know what it is and how much it impacts us now. Bubbles \(^_^)/ , Love you -rPhoenix
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