The year that was...

Too many mood swings, too many moments of losing my temper, too much of impatience creeping in, maybe it might sound like too much to handle. The same is being reflected in my actions and words of recent, as days pass by without any progress. Or, really? This is the year end and as I audited the year that has gone past, there have been many missing links but the year has seen some progress. 

From questions to elsewhere...

There are unanswered questions piling up by the passing days. All of them have been having an everlasting impact in the resulting daily activities upon the self. These unanswered questions do not seem to be seeing answers before the light fades. Oh, what would it have taken except few words or gestures as answers, I ask. But, even that has now become another question and there is no guarantee for answers. In search of answers have there been many quests, most of them with empty hands than minds.

The voice beyond...

A month of silence, many months worth of effort and finally we stand staring at the moment's advance in just a matter of hours. Through doubt, belief, determination and focus has it been scripted thus far keeping distractions and disbelief at bay until this hour. But, the power of the fear element can throw everything far and create chaos in the upper chamber. If such is the power of that element, then imagine what is the power of the elements inside you that have been warding them off all these days? What is confronting you is one element. But, what has been holding strong are many elements, a unison perfected over a long period of time that nothing can stop you from now on.

Value of Life...

What is the value of a Life? I mean, in monetary terms because today money determines everything, isn't it? So, what is the price for a Life? Alright, Life is priceless. But, that is only for some. For people like me, it comes at a price. I did a recent math in this regard and I was totally shocked to find the actual price of my Life. These are anxious hours and with endless waits, all these thoughts do come to my mind along with the thoughts of the early hours. So, what is the actual price? Before we start, today's random quote says: "Virtue has never been as respectable as money"

Early hours...

The early hours are the most beautiful ones when you are in Love. They say it is also the best of the times to make Love as well. Ahem ahem... This is going beyond control. The urge to reach you, the desperation to see you, the sheer need to be in your company, the ultimate motive to Live with you, everything is just making me go crazy, Love. When you add some music to flavour the emotions, Love can simply burst at its seams all over. I am sitting here listening to music, reminiscing our moments and the resulting feel at this early hour of the day after having waited  patiently  to cross the night, oh, I cannot put words together to describe this.

Hectic...

I am back here. After taking a break for sometime, it is time to document the most hectic of all the travels I have had in the past year or more. A full week of travel without proper food, sleep and a clogged mind, most of all. Some events happen out of the planned schedule and this time, as usual they were here uninvited. Right from the start, it was always a very demanding journey. With the Moon in the waning phase, there would be a lot of physical exertion as well. So, how did it go?

Heavy...

These are the matters of the heart. Not everyone can comprehend it. But, I know you can understand it better, Bubbles \(^_^)/. Last weekend was pretty much filled with only planning for what I had to do during the upcoming week. As usual everything was planned and I was only waiting for the dawn of Monday. But, things took a drastic turn. It is almost Tuesday dawning in few hours but, I have been stuck in this awkward freeze of the heart and mind.

Random rant...

After a long time, I am documenting something on a different note. It has been almost four years since this creature was born. Poor thing, would have been better if it had found a different home or even if left as a stray. When people cannot bend their spines for a pet that they get, they should simply let it go. Keeping them and torturing them is one thing, but what do you term the keeping and denying of basic rights? Money can buy anything nowadays. This is a classic example of how jealousy and money combined to ruin the life of a poor creature.

The step...

They kept threatening a prisoner of the gallows every time they wanted to see him in fear. One fine day, when everyone was searching for him, they found him fast asleep near the gallows. Upon questioning, he said, "The more you kept threatening me about the gallows, I developed an interest towards the same and my fear vanished. I am sleeping here because, I am ready for it anytime. If you wish to see me in the gallows, you need not take the effort to find and scare me anymore. I am here. It is just a matter of time before I hang there". What can you infer from this? Well, this is from no ancient story or reality. It is from my own Life. After the previous statement, I ask again, What can you infer from this? The question makes no sense, isn't it?

Emotions from the day...

The visit. It is done now. I had mentioned about the elaboration of the emotions while visiting the places of interest in the upcoming post. And, I am here just to pen down what I had to go through back there in just one day. Nobody gives a spoon if anyone cares about this post or not. If you are not interested, you should remind yourself as to how pointlessly you have been stalking this space for so long and bleed to death through your vents. I do not guarantee anything here because this is not your favourite TV show and you are not paying for what you are reading here. So, keep that fishing rod ready and engage yourself if you are feeling otherwise.

The visit...

I am here. The place where I was born and brought up. But, there's a lot more meaning for today's visit. I have come here for a reason. Oh, just a reason? *triple winks* Err... It is not just a reason. I feel this is far more beyond that. I am here, Bubbles \(^_^)/. I am here for you.

Fondness...

Are you fond of something or someone? Ever wondered what made you develop that feel? I am not talking about the reason behind your fondness. Those reasons are mere justifications that happen just for the sake of giving some supporting facts. I am talking about the actual spark that gave you this fondness. We may or may not find out about this spark because once we develop this fondness, we begin to allot a portion of the brain to start disliking something or the other about this fondness. Thanks to our ego. I do agree most of the brain is still mesmerised by this fondness. But, it is that small portion that makes all the difference.

Mastering the dark...

I am not afraid of the dark anymore. The day when they told me I have few more years to spend in the dark, maybe I had a sense of panic and anxiety about all the uncertainties but, as these years have expended themselves with all that they came packed with, I am here ready to face the dark for as long as they want me to. I even spent most of my road trips in the dark mastering the knack of handling the dark times with just a beam of light. Throw me into the ring filled with darkness and I can punch the teeth of your choice out from my opponent's mouth. *Smug of an evil thug*

The Phase...

It does not mean you are living just because you are alive. So, if someone throws you a question if you are alive, what would you reply? Most of them would question the person who questioned them asking, "Are you sane? or Are you blind? or Do I appear dead?" and the like. Some would take it on a lighter note and reply, "Yes." Very few would come up with an exciting "Yes, very much". And, it is very rare to find those who would open up and say, "Well, I am just existing" or something similar. Well, all those above mentioned answers or categories of people do not matter. I am here to tell you about something else.

A long night...

Just play that track for another ten times at least. *playing maate vinadhuga from taxiwaala* Alright, so that is what you do, Babe. Alright, you are content over there. But, it does not mean this verbal emptying should be paused, right? I have been trying to find some sleep for quite sometime. But, this heaviness that is hitting me from inside is like making me come out here and play those tracks nonstop and ponder over so many things to catch a glimpse of what is exactly causing this feel tonight.

What have I...?

What have I done for her? What have I given for her? Where have I taken her? There is a lot to ponder over. I do remember the list that comprises of what I have taken from her. I know what she has given for me. I know the places where she has taken me. She made a mention of feeling heavy. I did not feel it by then because I was elated by her presence. Now, I feel heavy. Partly upon realising that in spite of my presence, she felt heavy and I failed to do anything about that. Partly upon realising something else.

Heart in robes...

A silver lining in my skies, beaming at me as she fights;

Her battles were never in my plight, For she kept them always out of my sight;

In her ventures she showed me some light, towards where she headed always kept us in delight;

In the cold nights, she kept me away from the fright, Oh, we never knew of frost bite;

Until the moment, sanity came in and said, "Oh my Love, I have put you in deep strife".

Some stuff...

Some statements, some terminologies, some phrases are not meant to be heard or received. Not from your very near and dear and never from your loved one. Everyone undergoes stressful times and everyone has problems. And, there will be so much that we will come across or hear or feel during these times. What lets us come through in spite of our scars is not the motivation or determination, but the absence and avoidance of certain statements or terminologies or phrases. If such things are avoided, we get through faster and stronger. But, if those things happen, they will create scars bigger than those bitter experiences.

Indebted...

There is hope. And, hope is dangerous for people like me. For, hope lets everyone breathe further. Well, I have to breathe as long as I clear my debts to few people. I see God's cunning hand in always keeping me with some debts so that I will not take the plunge into the after-life. I do not have the mindset to look into anyone's eyes right now for where I stand in my Life. I do not meet people, I do not talk to anyone, I am simply not connected anywhere. I do not know what I am here for. But, I have to ensure the debts are cleared to keep my name intact.

The force within...

I lay in wait, keeping my voices and actions at an all time low, trying to stay quiet until my time arrives. You seem to be occupied with the task in hand, little did I know that my task in hand would be to be on the lookout for you. Well, if I had known this in advance, I would have not let you slip through.

A generic note...

For every life I have come across, I hold a sense of responsibility to be there and make sure they are in safe waters. Dragging along a huge pile of memories, Life is not worth it if you do not stand for those who presented themselves for you when it mattered. When this began, I did not have any tailing memories and it seemed easy. But, as years pass and you accumulate more such lives and memories, the going gets tough. 

Inconsiderate...

It is good to see everyone happy and feeling satisfied with their Lives. Equally they are responsible, oh let me correct it. Equally they should be responsible and accountable. But, what I see is they are all completely irresponsible and do not feel any sense of accountability. Neither has there been a word of regret for their actions. But, what is expected out of me is total compliance in whatever I am deemed to be responsible and accountable. Come on, give it a break. Do not keep overfeeding me with this hatred. When I throw up, it will be a mess. 

Panic...

A sense of panic has set in. It has come with a lot of fear never seen before. But, I cannot give in to these fears. There is a new development. It has been several days and nights now. It was not like this till date but the latest development is keeping me anxious and incline towards panic. Why, Babe? Why and what is happening? I am a lot worried now. 

My Lady...

My Lady, my Babe, my Bae, my Bubbles, my Ladio, my Love, my Life, my everything, you are just one package for me. Err... Package does not always mean an object. This package I am referring to... Oh, I know that you got it. Alright, what is it that makes me revolve around you all the time? Oh, my time is calculated based on the revolutions I complete around you. *winks*

My travel...

I like to travel. But, all the more I like to drive or ride. Rather than being a mere passenger, what has always been my area of interest since childhood is to be in the driver/rider seat. There is no fun if you have to just sit idle and travel. I would rather not travel at all. Well, I agree that not everyone likes to drive or ride. And, just as I respect those who prefer to be mere passengers, I would be respectful to only those respect my preference equally. As for the rest, I am giving you a fishing rod to go and fish for yourself. 

Crux of the matter is...

God has given us each other. In your version, why give God the merit to have found each other? Let it be we found ourselves in each other and we pretty much are so involved in each other's well-being and happiness. Either way, the crux of the matter is still the same. We have each other so safe within ourselves. So? You may ask. Or, I may start elaborating in my usual "So,..."

The Crony's isolation...

Signs of felony in the fellowship is seen,

Isolating this crony in a state of irony;

No time for title...

The sense of gloom shadows the little window of hope in me. This eerie silence making it certain towards a path of doom. Mercy, is not something I can afford to ask. While holding onto thin strands of hope, I am faced with the thought of phasing out this presence, as everyone I know have got nothing at all to keep me in the present. They who have uttered, have many a times stuttered. Oh, English Rose! Are you ready to witness my end as my fate comes close?

Special day...

A wonderful day. Such special days make me stay feeling connected with you, a lot more my Love. As I wait for the clock to strike at midnight, the day begins for me irrespective of sunrise or whatever. These days of immense importance never go wasted. I spend the entire 24 hours forgetting even sleep and food to feel loved and lovely. My dear Bubbles, come and join me in this journey through the day that has so much for us from the past, in the present and into the future.

Toxic air...

Babe, where are you? I have a lot to tell you. By the almighty's grace, the lorry has been saved. I have been supplied with an instrument to bail myself out for the time being. But, is this happiness? Certainly, no. True happiness would be having you to celebrate this happening instead of preventing the lorry from facing the axe.

The return of the lorry...

I was travelling between cities to visit few temples as usual and to finish some routine tasks for the month. By now, it had been a full month without a part of my Life- the lorry. Every time I called, the lorry's trusted mechanics were busy and had been delaying delivery. But, when I called this morning, they confirmed me that the lorry will be ready in few hours and I can see it come to life again by evening. A month ago, when the engine died at high speeds, I felt something go away from me. I felt it coming back to me only after hearing the word from this guy. I was excited for the evening.

A new dimension...

Of all the beautiful creations we see all around us, there has been nothing close to equalling your beauty. I mean, you have seen a lot of my words asking about your silence. But, the beauty of the matter is, every time I ask you, the way you keep prolonging this episode of silence is simply unmatched. It just draws me closer and closer to you. When we get something in the first instance itself, there is no achievement or a sense of accomplishment in it. But, the more we yearn for something and the more we keep taking efforts to attain it, there can be no accomplishment superior to that.

Eyes closed...

These are long nights with absolutely freezing temperatures outside. The night's chill is still not enough to put me to sleep. It feels nice to lie down but it is not anywhere nearer to attaining a peaceful sleep. There is a lot going on inside. A lot of questions, doubts and what not. I can set them aside easily nowadays because of the recent habit that I am so fond of. It is this habit that is keeping me so hooked nowadays. And, it has a lot to do with you, Bubbles \(^_^)/

Tribute to the legend...

Who wouldn't fall in Love? Why are the European machines so emotionally connecting? What amount of hardwork, design, research, involvement, dedication, performance will it take to replicate one of their creations? What a splendid masterpiece this is?! Three years of waiting, two years of yearning and now three years of owning.

The powerful truth...

It has been quite a long time since I have sat at my desk. In fact, I do not have a permanent desk now. The nomadic Life that has been the norm since this year's start is evolving day by day and I have eventually evolved along with it to make sure the posts here are present when it matters. Sometimes I find myself at a loss of words. The loss of words would normally be for a few minutes before I can get a grasp of things and keep the flow going. But, over the past few months it has been a loss of words for a greater period of time. Upon finding my hold over the things, I stumbled upon a realisation that has made me feel a little better for the things that have happened in the past year or so.

The voice of the mystic Rose...

After trying to grow them for over two decades, it finally clicked in recent times. The joy of seeing them bloom was overwhelming. And, when the same was shared with my lovely Lady, it made the joy multifold. The more she described them, the more I felt inspired to grow them faster and keep them in full bloom all the time. But, disaster struck and it seemed like everything was just a short-lived episode before I discovered something that changed things altogether. 

Blessed and lucky...

The moment I ask her something, she never hesitates. The moment I tell her something, she never resists. The moment I call her, she never delays. The moment I think of her, she immediately fills up. The moment I feel her, she always heals. Such is her beauty, such is our Love. 

... (updated)

I do not have a door to knock and it is of no use if I keep my doors open neither. "How big can a realisation be than this in Life?", questions my heart, mind, body and soul in unison. I bear this tonight as I pen this down. 

Only a miracle can...

I hear voices from inside that are the echoes of my inner soul saying, "Only a miracle can simply keep me alive. Otherwise, all I have is less than ten months to be exact". I am not scared of what I will have to face. I am prepared to face it. But, this is how the factsheet is as of now. And, when this echo from within becomes loud enough at nights, oh, is sleep even an option to be considered?

So what?...

So what? Yeah! So what if your visits have decreased along the recent times? Oh, yeah! So what? So what if you have reasons for? Oh, right! There are reasons behind everything. And, thus, I have a reason for being so ardent towards you. And, while you cling onto yours, I shall not differ and will keep myself hooked up to mine. 

A strange dream...

In this dream, I am seen walking with two heavy bags. I assume those are my sins and stress that I am carrying as bags. The dream starts with myself stopping at a shop to buy my favourite sweet for one last time. I am alone. And, I am in the streets of the locality where I was born and brought up. 

The battering ram...

When I find so much going against me with regard to what I desire for, when I find this entire world doing anything and everything to try and erase something I am working towards, when I emerge unscathed after all these, I am in this state of invincibility. Hey, Lady! I wink at you, I show funny faces at you, I even dare to dance around you- for, all of you have made me a lot more stronger.

This realm...

This realm of not much difference, this reality that is challenged by you, this moment of trying hard to forget my everything, joining hands with the world to oust my reign, efforts on and on to get rid of my presence, the willingness and ability to move out and seek refuge, oh where did I exactly get hit, I cannot make out. But, whatever hit me came clearly out of the blue.

Purpose?... What?

With the way things are turning against me, I get a feeling as to what I am fighting for and why? An employee works looking for rewards and remuneration, a labourer works for wages, a dog wags its tail for a treat from its owner. Likewise, everything we do should have some purpose or something to achieve. But, with what I see, whatever I am striving for, I am only seeing further burden added than a new beginning.

My Girl...

I have my Girl. She is so magical. She is so powerful. She is so beautiful. She just comes and it appears like she does it so easy and sweeps me off my feet. She quietly sneaks into my heart and knows how to steal it. Then, she would give that look which questions me intensely about many things she abstains from asking through voice. Just one look and all that noise disappears from around and we enter our own world of romance.

The Embrace...

She sat there with a sense of grief. It was so unbearable for her that she decided to answer to his beacon. She set the pulse right away and they were in each other's company as ever. For some time, they sat linked to each other's true feelings. And, when he asked what was bothering her, she answered in her own way. The answer made him immediately reach out to her in the best possible way available.

Nights of...

It is all but a set of keys here in front of me. I try to make as much sense as possible to make you understand. But, whether you make anything out of it in the way I want to convey is clearly a mystery. It appears quite evident now, a clearly burdened heart this is and the voice of it, the very beat of it will fade soon, freezing for that one moment, to let everyone breathe a sigh of relief. 

Dotted...

The eyes swell with a massive flood making visibility all blurred out. I just wish you were here by my side right now. But, what more can I expect when even my words do not make any sense to you? The heart feels a bit dizzy, it feels like it is out of shape, not knowing which rhythm to beat to, even a brief blog vacation only seems to make your absence more pronounced. Oh, Love! Where are you now? I need you here now!

Through the scourge...

I wish I could rewind back and take your place. I wish I could go back and relive everything you felt, you dreamt, everything you lived, everything you wanted to live with me, everything and just every single thing. The difference between loneliness and being alone, the understanding between staying alone and feeling lonely, all those are simply not seeming to be sufficing what you are trying to push through my throat.

The handicap...

I took a short nap. And, in my dream I was on a wheelchair. While I was awake, I was left stranded. So, the handicap was reflected pretty much even in my dream. I was extremely thirsty and was looking to get some water to drink. It was such a hot afternoon.

The redemption...

How joyful you feel upon seeing a person bring back their childhood memories and getting ready to live it all with their people once again. This time, not as a child but as a retired veteran of a career spanning many decades. When I visualised it, I knew the consequences awaiting me. But, who cares? Well, even I do not care because it is for the person and their redemption of a long lost Life, I chose to do it all. Today, I am here to witness the redemption and rebirth happen all over to my Mother. 

Across the globe...

They set sail on a voyage. It was more of an adventurous journey and the accomplishment of a long-pending dream. It was only the two. They wanted to travel without any boundaries, exploring the entire world all by themselves. The journey would cover many months, many places, many modes of transport, many experiences and many moments. It was one journey that will be the journey of their Life.

Our rise...

Eyes wide open, I now know all that has happened.

Come on, let us take in, all that can lighten.

Once we get it open, we can send in lightnings.

In Capital letters...

We clash with mountains that tower against us. 

We try to get louder and find ourselves bolder. 

The anxious hour...

A post that happened during the wait to know what is about to come in the next few hours. Coming at an unexpected hour, there was a message hinting that something big is coming for sure. How does one react? How am I supposed to keep calm? How impacting would it be upon an already withering soul that is fighting against every single atom in this universe to sustain and find its presence worthy. A mild heart attack this is. Only difference is, unlike other heart attacks, this does not occur once. It keeps occurring by the every passing beat out of anxiety and nervousness that has crept in ever since the morning's unexpected message.

Our Special day...

Ah! A message! I am here. I am not moving an inch from here until you give me all that you want to. Wow! What a start to the day and the week?! Oh boy, I have been waiting to hear from you. I am so delighted to receive the set of words that are coming from my very own Bubbles \(^_^)/. I have put everything on hold. Nothing moves until I get to see what you have in store for me. My eyes are lighting up like a small kid at the candy store awaiting his/her first candy. Bring it on, Bubbles \(^_^)/. Take off the wraps from what you are planning to surprise me with.

He who waits...

Well, you know you need to find this voice again and keep listening to it but, you also know you have to wait for it. You know you need to satisfy yourself by feeling the presence of this special someone but, again you have to wait for it. You know you have to spend every possible moment with this loved one but you have to wait for it. In this waiting game, which is more of what they call the reality, everything moves slowly when we wait. All those days when we lived the above mentioned, time just flew past. Today, the commentator in a race session said, "All things comes to he who waits". I am waiting. And, I know we will live it all.

Our reign...

Hello! How are you? Is everything alright? What have you been upto of recent? It has been quite a long break since the previous post. All in all, I will always come back to say, quitting this page is of no use and there is nothing better happening as such. So, I do not want to see a message from you saying I have to 'quit' anything hereafter. *Grins* Bubbles \(^_^)/, late last evening, with the surface gusts and lightning flashes all around, I did come. It was a special visit to the temple nearby. Oh, just a visit to the temple? Only that? Oh, you know it already that it was not just for the temple. *Winks*

The mid-point theory...

You are currently posited where I was in the year 2010. Back then, I had added an additional qualification to my academics and so have you today. But, it came after a delay of six months just like yours. To the person I was back then to the person I am today, I can bring out the transformation that has taken place altogether very easily. And, it was not very easy back then. So, the transformation you are about to undergo from now on to the year 2028 will be of epic proportions. Till date, it would have been a different way of Life just like how I had it till 2010. But, from now on, you will see the transformation and the tendency to find a sense of calmness increase from within. 

Into the Eastern ghats...

It is hard to believe that 24 hours ago, I was carefully negotiating the unmanned ghat section of a hill station and at present, I am sitting at home with the material comforts of a modern lifestyle. This year has been so drastic with the changes it brings. One day I am somewhere in no man's land and the other day, I am totally in an urban modern lifestyle. So, it was another weekend of travel and this time, I just fell short of the 1000 Kms mark by just 100 Kms. The tan from the other side of the coast is slowly fading and I found myself drenched in torrential rain last evening during the return journey of the trip. Bubbles, you keep asking me to do this and that but, whatever I do, wherever I go, you are always the one for me. 

I...

I see you looking at me from across the street and I walk there to find empty spaces.

Entering the tunnel...

These are times of desertion. When every known face has made a move to the distance, I stutter to elaborate my stance. Like a ray of hope, she emerged out of nowhere. I found myself relieved. But, all that she conveyed tells me her state, and before I could relate, she immediately took flight.

State of invincibility...

To shine during weakness, to glitter with all prowess, the ability to sweep me off my feet, that agility to bring me back so clean, you have the wow factor, I must admit. To heck with the circumstances, as time keeps tossing them at us, there are two united hearts that are fighting one mind. With what has come to the shore, the message seems to show some signs here and there. I know what would set this right is when these energies merge into one. How and when is something that we have to wait till its unfolds.

The Modus Operandi...

My Lady! Bubbles \(^_^)/, What do we call our new found fortune? Can you see how very few words have turned the tables all of a sudden? Every time I come to sing praises about you, you kept denying. But, this period of lull has nullified your attempts and lets me keep adding one after the other. If what you hold in your hand has the eagerness and interest like me, do you know how admiringly it would be looking at you while you are reading this? *Winks*

Our Notebook...

With minutes to the crack of dawn, I got to know what "The notebook" has to say. Oh, how beautifully they have crafted it to showcase true Love. And, when it comes as a suggestion from you, my Love, there is nothing greater than our success in Love. That could be fiction, but ours is reality. Ours is a step above than that. Yes, Bubbles \(^_^)/. I understand the power of Love, our love. I still wonder how or what made me to make the previous post with that image of our notebook even before knowing what "The notebook" had to convey. When I made that post, I had not even begun to look for "The notebook". 

Hey!

Hey Bubbles \(^_^)/, this has been four full years ago. I am still feeling the same. You are simply the most beautiful angel for me. The one and only, my Bubbly li'l Bubbles \(^_^)/

The beats...

*Playing Our lights shine by Drunken Kong* Yes. The bass and the beats that are your favourite are here. Play the track and read on. When you are finding yourself so drowning in water, you try to protest and try to keep yourself afloat. That moment is certainly a struggle. But, when that keeps happening often, you equip yourself with diving gear or you learn to stay afloat with your previous experiences. Likewise, stress is also handled by us similarly. 

Fairy smiles...

When my fairy smiles, there is no need to find anything nicer than that. When she manages to give me her best, what more can I do than to rest. The glint in her eyes, the sunshine upon which she seems to be leaning on, the look in her eyes, the flowing hair reflecting the shades of her attire, the partially hidden ear rings, oh, what a sight indeed on a fine morning?!

The girl with the tablet...

I know a girl. I know her as a woman today. But, she is still the same girl whom I saw in the virtual world for the first time almost a decade ago. The day when I first acquainted her, she was a girl, with a lot of curiosity to know the world. She has been associated with me for a long time now that I cannot spend a minute without thinking about her. We have had a variety of experiences in our Life together. Plenty of emotions we have handled of each other, a plethora of circumstances and also the most celebrated and the most dreaded of moments as well. This girl with the tablet. She is the same girl. But, the tablet that she used to have in her hand back then is different to the tablet that she holds in her hand today. Well, this post is covering the journey from one tablet to another but with the same girl.

The connect...

Woah! I am jumping here, punching to the skies, so happy and delighted like a kid who seems to be getting a candy at the fair. It is pronounced now. It is clear, It is clarified. It is you, my Bubbles \(^_^)/, my very own Bubbles \(^_^)/ *Err... Ownership is subject to terms and conditions* *Poking tongue* *Winks... Triple Winks!!!* Alright, trying to calm down but I do not want to calm down even if you come and pull me down by my collar, Bubbles \(^_^)/. This is it! This is what it is all about. It is the connect. It is our very own connect. This is totally worth it. *Fish yeah! lik a bau5* Woohoo! Yeah! Bring it on, Baby! Yessssss! We totally owned the circumstances with this. The course of true love never did run smooth. True. But, at the same time, True Love kept running and never stopped. That is the missing link. You have provided it now. Everybody, salute! To my ever-loving Bubbles \(^_^)/

Yo!

Hey Bubbles \(^_^)/ 

At wit's end...

In these few decades of living on this surface, I have come across many situations, phases, scenarios, circumstances, crossroads, and so on. People weigh each other differently, each one's perception varying according to their whims and fancies from time to time. What remains constant is our reception to everything good and bad. What have I been upto? What have I been worthy of? Where am I heading towards? What lies ahead and was it worth experiencing all these till date? Will it bear fruits in the future? Standing still even in times of turbulence, will this skill be of use in calm waters?

It's the Moon...

In my earlier posts I had mentioned about how my travels kept increasing with the arrival of the Full Moon. This weekend though, with the arrival of the New Moon, everyone except me have set out on their travels. Or, let me put it like I have been arrested at home with the responsibility that I cannot escape. This responsibility was there even during all the recent Full Moon days but this time, with no energy coming from the Moon due to its absence, I have been grounded. And, guess what? The next weekend's travel is already planned for me. A full 750 KMs Bike ride. And, yet another trip in the growing phase of the Moon.

Just a word...

Dust seems to be settling on many things around here. Many remain untouched, there are no movement of people anymore, this place remains locked either from inside or outside and is not open anymore. It all boils down to one final thought now. Will one act of insanity wipe out all acts of atrocities on me? This is no million dollar question but, a priceless question. All it takes is one act, nothing more and nothing less. Whether it is insane or the most logical, it can only be answered by time. 

The escapade... Part-3

Into our trip for the second day, we had decided that we would extend it by another day and keep one day for our return journey to Bengaluru and drive back home with few hours of rest in between. My threshold is 1300Kms of nonstop driving in 20 hours and I knew this return journey was less than 1000Kms to drive back home and it was well within my threshold given the few hours of sleep I can get in between. It was one full day in water, then two and then three full days of playing in the water and only water. The evidence for the same can be seen in the tanning that we have acquired.

The escapade... Part-2

When this escapade post was first started, I was sitting facing the other side of the subcontinent. I had stopped it mid-way because of the uncertainty of the miles ahead. What started as a drive to Bengaluru to celebrate a Birthday, went on and on and seemed to be extending and I was doubtful if it would end after the Goa trip or something else would pop up suddenly and keep extending further. Fortunately, it seemed to have ended. In the first part, the first 1500Kms was documented. Let us get into the Goan expedition. Shall we?

The escapade... Part-1

Escaping all the chaos, a long drive from the already distant home, I am facing the coast on the other side where there are no sunrises by the shoreline but only sunsets. This does not sound all positive for those who are used to seeing the sun rise by the seaside. This is my longest ever trip as such and it has been filled with many firsts as well. I have covered different terrain, different states and have travelled from coast to coast spanning 3000 KMs during this trip.

My English Rose...

The remnants of a storm, the remnants of a charm, the remnants are all that is left. 

With the potential to rise, and some potential to be a wife, what stays is the potential for Life.

The tribute...

Bubbles \(^_^)/ , I have created something special for you. I was working on this idea for quite a long time but finally found the right time to make it. So, what is it? Curious, arent't we? *Winks*

Same to same...

This short post will be dealing with the similarities that we have had and the ones that have kept me totally surprised and awestruck. I am listing the ones that we have not discussed till date.

Hey...

Everyone will be fine. Everything will fall in place. No matter how many hurdles are present in the path, each one will be crossed. There will be happiness. There will be hope. There will be smiles. There will be laughter. There will be prosperity. There will be the sense of contentment. There will be wealth. There will be good health. There will be progress. All the dreams and desires will come true. In reality will be heaven and all adversities will be non-existent. And, all these are already happening or coming soon for you, Bubbles \(^_^)/

Celebrating Love...

Your perennial show of beauty is all that it takes, for me to emerge successful through the stark realities. By the way, what are you turning away from? Anyway, with so much oozing out there, it would have been too hot to handle with your eyes looking at me in the frame. *Grins* I see that you did this to make me feel better. Guess what? It worked. As ever.

First task...

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My fruits...

Bubbles \(^_^)/, so you are hooked upon viewing the clicks? Superb. I got the message. *Winks* Three consecutive full moons and I have been travelling thousands of Kilometres whenever the full moon nears. One more is coming and after a very short break, travels are commencing again. Over the next weekend, there is another trip coming up. *Shocked* This year is supposed to be alike. So be it. How's Bubbles doing? *Triple Winks*

Morning ride...

It was a sudden call. A call from within at the crack of dawn. As early as 4:45 A.M, my eyes opened and the first thought was about Bubbles asking me to go for a ride. In the parking area, the 'lorry' stood ready to race. So, what else was there to prevent me from hitting the highway? Actually, nothing. An impromptu ride! That's what I had decided. I quickly got everything packed and left home to catch the sunrise along the coastline. 

Names...

Today, I would like to clarify few things as to why people call me a saint. It makes me laugh whenever I come across that term because to be a saint requires giving up on desires and all it takes is to only roam around physically or mentally in search of a way to quench the spiritual thirst. But, I do not seek that. Still, I am being termed a saint. And, upon introspecting I found out why they seem to be calling me alike. So, what is it? Why is it so? And, when will it change?

Do my Dance...

I may be broken but I have my Bubbles \(^_^)/ to mend me. What do you haters have to fend yourselves with? Because, upon celebrating my fall, you liberate me, only to let me come back to obliterate all of you from your roots. My Baby came, My Lady Love, My Bubbles \(^_^)/. She came and spoke to me in a language known only to myself and her, she asked me to go for a drive and assured me that we both are soul mates. There is nothing else needed to mend me and bring me back to my prime. Anything more than that, I will forget or prepone my date of birth by a month immediately. *Winks*

Soul mates...

To get yourself completely involved in something, what do you need? Or, what brings out the most out of yourself? When is it that you are at your best? What makes you think and achieve beyond imagination? Can an emotion that transcends beyond dimensions be the answer? If you couldn't find Love ever in your Life, you will never find an answer. But, if you did, like every other being filled with emotions, then you would have realised that the answer is inevitably Love and nothing else.

Hooked...

Woah! Woah! Woah! Somebody's turned the heat on with an update. What a click?! Wow, just wow! So wonderfully portrayed in a single frame. All of the desires and dreams that lie inside are gleaming so bright on your face. Man, did I miss those eyes? No. I have tried and tried and tried to elaborate on them but what the heart sees, the mind is not able to pen down the same or anywhere nearer. Woohoo! This simply blew the lid off my imagination. Probably a click from the Wild Garden- the cafe at Amethyst, I guess. But, who cares where it is from when all that matters is to get lost in the frame.

Greatest good luck?...

"A great man's greatest good luck is to die at the right time", says my daily random quote. True. Isn't it? I mean, the past relatively seems to be male chauvinistic, right? Every saying or quote or proverb seems to be mentioning only about man. Although they intended mankind as a whole, we have many women screaming their voices out asking for equality. Well, upon introspecting, they are shouting so well because they live under cozy shades provided by Man. Err.... I mean, mankind as a whole, you see. *Smug of an evil thug* With due respect to real women and all hatred towards fake feminists, let us get into this post forgetting everything about man or mankind or chauvinism or feminism.

Yay! Travel again...

I am travelling by a Multi-axle Volvo A/C sleeper today. Woah! This is a traveller's delight. It is so comfortable and pleasant to travel. The first time I had travelled by a Volvo bus was back in 2007 when these Volvo buses were in their initial days of launch. Then, I took my first multi-axle Volvo on a brand new B9R model in 2009 but they were all semi-sleeper coaches. This one today, is a long-hauler. This is a sleeper coach. Feels more mature than the typical sleeper coaches on our roads. 

Drive...

Break these shackles and ride with the wind,

Upon reaching what seems to be the end, you shall know what is needed to make the mend.

Spread your wings and rise above everything,

Upon managing your flight, you shall realise that it is not such a plight.

Feed the fishes...

Pets. There are lovers and never haters. There are people who have an aversion towards pets. But, not any haters as such. I am a pet lover. So, you are. Otherwise, you wouldn't make it so obvious in your social media profile headline and I wouldn't be making this post now. What makes pets special? Are they mere slaves for our entertainment? Or, are they far more than what we can describe? Recently, my sibling lost an entire aquarium owing to overfeeding. We were not at home and the moment we got the news, I decided to return back and check what had happened.

Hey G20!

Wake up! Wake up! It has dawned. Rise up! Rise up! No more yawns. Hey G20, shall we sit for our summit? Oh, this has nothing to do with the UN's G20. This is just you and me. *Winks* I have worked through the data, and it shows your resolve. I have gone through the dates and it shows how to resolve. Whatever be the case, ours is not dissolved. So, shall we sit for our G20? *Grins*

In heaven...

Bubbles... \(^_^)/

Travel bug...

It has been 3000 Kms in three trips in 10 days. And, did it stop? No. There's one more coming up for the weekend. A long weekend. A very long one indeed. I guess it is about to cross another 1000Kms for sure taking the total to around 4000-5000Kms of travel in a fortnight. How did I catch this wanderlust, I do not know. Although I am on the verge of becoming tired of travel, there is more coming uninvited. 

With Love...

Our times are a lot hectic than what our previous generation has seen. Our days are so faster yet the hours per day are the same as it has been for them. In spite of our hectic schedules, we stick to certain time-tested behavioural patterns. Likewise, due to our hectic schedules we tend to forget things that we once used to do. We have come far from leisure that played a prominent role in our childhood. We have come far from games, walks, jolly talks and much more. At the same time, we have not forgotten our basics like culture, food, sleep, clothing and shelter. One can argue that this is bound to happen and the other can argue saying it depends on individuals. But, what transcends everything is one and only one emotion- Love.

The trip... (Live post -updated and closed)

Ahoy there! Today is the day. It is a new attempt at something I have always wanted to do but seem to have finally found a day to do the same. Today, I am posting on the move. As I experience the day, so shall I scribble them here. I have 800-1000Kms to cover for the day to visit our favourite temple and return home. The 'lorry' is about to start in an hour's time. I welcome you, Bubbles \(^_^)/ , to hop onboard the day's narration. 

Note to Bubbles...

Not too far from me, there is a soul that is so restless to know about me. Everyday, every post, every visit, every update, the person wants to know it all. It appears as if the person is demanding me to keep writing. *Poking tongue* I am assured of one reader in this way. I am assured of a shoulder to bear my burden in a way. I am assured of your presence here. I can breathe quite relaxed because of that. And, who else can it be other than my own Bubbles \(^_^)/ ? *Smiles*

Bubbly playlist...

Whenever I make a mention saying that people who read these posts do not dare to comment, I am not lamenting. In a way, I am pointing out that even upon provoking, there will not be comments because that highlights how many people are prying this space. A guy being stalked so much?!!(What have women become in today's world? *Shocked*), this is the first time I am coming across such a scenario. Alright. Bubbles \(^_^)/, isn't it time to find a playlist that best suits us. There have been many playlists and tracks finding a mention here. Why not a playlist for ourselves? *Winks*

Late night ride...

During a recent outing late into the night, I happened to meet a guy on the highway. He seemed to be broke and was sitting on the roadside railing with his bike parked nearby. Upon stopping and talking to him, I learnt something that is prevalent in today's world. Although he was doing something wrong, there was something that was worth listening and learning from his experience. In our short conversation that lasted just few minutes, I gave him what best I could and made sure he was going home safe and not sitting in the dark for long.

Oh, logic?...

People I have come across often fancy considering themselves as a "victim". On the contrary, when I have shared scenarios of myself being in a similar state, they often talk with a wide mouth stretching from ear to ear arguing that it was just destiny and everything that would make them talk as if such victimisation can happen only to them. Bah! Tired of that crap totally. Be it a victim or a prey or a predator or whatever, everyone has it in their Lives and failure to comprehend this is such a shame for these people to be a part of humankind. 

The nail...

Alright people! It is that time of the year where you catch a tan even if you stay indoors in this part of the world. To all my secretive readers from the other side of the world and to Bubbly Bubbles, it is time to ramp up the energy levels. Coming soon, yet another trip for 1000 Kms, making it a three thousand kilometres covered in a mere 10 days interval spread across three different trips. Soaring temperatures, searing heat, sweltering whatever it maybe, it is time to go out and make that inevitable tan a little more darker. *Winks*

The unknown sphere...

There are no emotions, no soft corners, no dreams, no light, no Love, no Life, no desires, no visuals, nothing but vast expanses of darkness. To check the depths of the darkness, whatever words are thrown out are getting lost without any echoes. There seem to be no boundaries or limits to this place. It feels like the absolute end. There are no voices from outside. There is simply nothing that differentiates this place from any other place elsewhere. What should this be called? A different world or just the absolute darkness?

The crazy playlist...

These pricks enter and gatecrash into the events that are unfolding or are about to unfold leaving a trail of unwanted strain in us and stain on us. What do people like me resort to? Where do we seek refuge? You can comfortably hide where you are hiding right now and reading this. But, for people like me, it should be some crazy and insane or unimaginable tracks in a playlist that we develop to refuel the ever-draining energy reserves. One such playlist is going to dominate this post. To make the trip safe and sane keeping the depression aside while driving, I put together this playlist to numb my head. So, what does this consist? Before that, I hope you found out the reason behind the "Shall I kneel..." post? *Winks*

Shall I kneel...

Hey! Shall I kneel? Tell me, Shall I kneel? Shall I kneel? Oh, Shall I kneel? Just tell me, Shall I kneel? Come on. Let me know, Shall I kneel? Keep reading these until you find out why I ask this.

Trips... Again...

Two weekends. Two massive trips to be made. Each of these trips will be captained by none other than, me! me!! me!!! *Grins* Well, the first is a 800-1000Kms trip spread across the weekend. The second trip would be a one day trip covering 800-1000Kms to our favourite temple. Bubbles \(^_^)/, my guardian angel! Stay by my side to let me make these trips safe and sane. This time, no night riding involved. Keeping everything only during the day. The first trip is on four wheels. The second would be with the lorry. Let's see how it goes.

Title? What title?...

Everyone needs someone at some point or the other in their Lives. Only one will be able to give the everything one needs. To me, it is you. Upon realising this, I gave my word and I stand by it till date. But, where are you, Bubbles \(^_^)/ ? Hey! I have so much to tell you but await to hear from you. Hey! You know my excitement. Don't you? I just cannot wait to tell you but the only thing that I have to do right now is to wait. Ah! It simply sucks. Bubbles, Bubbles \(^_^)/, hey! How are you?

The bloody Pricks...

Warning: Summer is here. The heat is on. So, have I lost my temper below. Beware! 

Venture at your own risk!

Evolution...

Ours is a generation that was born when technology was so backward but eventually technology advanced manifold before we fully grew up. The result? We sit and watch small and giant screens instead of looking at one another and communicating in the way it has to be done. Price? It is the price that we both have paid already i.e., we are forced to look for each other in the same screens. Oh, what a shame?! "What has man made of man?!..." When I first came across that verse from a poem in middle school, it never made sense. But, I can make all of it now. *Sigh*

The balancing act...

We are in a world for these number of years wherein our everything will appear to be poles apart from those who are around us. Yes. If everyone is running, we will appear to be resting. If everyone appears to make progress, we will appear to be in distress. These two shadowy planets are known to be orbiting in the opposite direction to how the other planets orbit the sun. Thus, with the influence of the energies from these two planets that are doing everything in opposite, our Life will also be opposite to how others are living. Wait. This is only until this period ends. Beyond which, we will skyrocket to heights others cannot even imagine.

The access...

We believe what we watch in movies. If we did not believe in them, we would not be watching them in such giant screens or even tiny screens. The curiosity to know what the next frame unfolds keeps us gripped until the climax of the movie which would consist of the good winning over the evil. Stories can be different but the core theme lies the same. Likewise, our Lives can be different but the core theme is the same. Good will triumph over evil. All those who play spoilsport in disturbing what the heart sees as good will be struck down firmly by the mind. Truth cannot be hidden for long. Similarly, one's true form cannot be manipulated for long. One such true form was just brought out of the wraps.

Happy Ugadhi...

Bubbles... \(^_^)/, Happy Ugadhi!

Into Oblivion...

The journey begins. In search of humanity, to get in touch with some certainty and to be at full liberty. Every step to be taken shall be in pursuit of such pleasure in spite of the pricking pressure initially. The tipping point for any ship shall be unknown until it begins to sink. There has to be something even in nothing. And, to keep eyes open for that needs everything in the name of hope. But, how far can the receptors stare at the oncoming glare? Thus, the journey into oblivion shall begin. If there is a saviour, they shall do the needful if it is meant to be. One step and the next will fall in line. 

Soft note to stalkers...

Do not read this Bubbles! This is for those rotting maggots that are prying over us.

In the woods...

It is quite dark in here. It gets a lot spookier than the previous steps taken. As I venture deep into the woods, all that I see is darkness and that's when I began to wonder if one can even see darkness? Or, can darkness have anything at all to see? Or, Is it worth seeing in the darkness? Or, can there be anything that is visible in the darkness? Or, what difference does it make if you venture into such darkness with eyes open or closed? Questions, questions and questions. Be it darkness or the light, one thing is for sure. Questions! Now, I wonder who will answer all those.

Hola!

The riddle has served its purpose. I can very well see who it is I am dealing with. Welcome aboard, my Love. It was not that the riddle was meant to be solved. It was to see how the riddle was approached in the past few days. And, the riddle was not just solvable by you. I set it in such a way that one other person could also potentially solve it. And, if only the riddle had been solved, I would have worried. Reason? Ah! Never mind.

Help unlock our freedom...

Ah-ha! So, I now get it. You very well knew that I have a back up of your words and you made it private so that none other than us will possess the treasure?! Woah! Sometimes, it takes quite a delay to make sense out of your actions for me. Bubbles \(^_^)/, I have a plan. To keep our words private, I have another page that is known only to you and me. And, I intend to not leave the altar aside for its uniqueness and yet, I do not want everything to be in black and white only here. So, if black remains here, the white will remain in the other page. *Winks*

Women's Day Greetings...

Today is a day of immense importance. It is the International Women's Day. One section of so-called Women, they are always alike. They seek equality only in areas where comfort is the key element viz., sitting in A/C cabins and working like equals to Men. But, when it comes to certain high risk work areas like driving, working on high-tension wires and such kind, you wouldn't find any women or their rights organisations anywhere in sight. Yes. I support Women welfare and upliftment. In fact, they do not need any special effort to be uplifted as such. Just let them free and they will be on their own without any assistance. But, we should equally accept the bitter frog here that is, how these women and their all-nonsense organisations fight for equality only in areas of comfort. Come on people. Look around. You very well know what I am talking about. Do not dare to play a fake saviour of Women here.

The mystery...

Ah, your result is still the biggest unsolved mystery to me. Yet, if the result was not as desired, then come to me and sit in silence. I know you will vow to make a comeback. Without much delay, let me sing it to you. *Playing Oru deivam thantha poove (Male version) from Kannathil Muthamittal* Do not read further until you listen to that song. Once done, proceed reading through the post. Bubbles \(^_^)/, you may wonder why I include these songs in between. For, it is difficult for people to comprehend whatever I write down. But, when I link these songs, maybe I can convey the emotion or the closest meaning to all of you.

In memory of...

Today I might be trampled upon because I am younger in age. But, according to nature's rule, everyone ages upwards. In that way, I will grow older and those who trampled upon me shall wind up all their trampling and sit down finally unable to stand one fine day. That day is not too far as I see. I persist to exist at least till then. I will show them how it felt to be trampled upon. For, they did not joke when they said "every dog has its day". I would be grateful to be termed a dog for that matter. One such dog was born 14 years ago and it changed my Life all the way till her last breath. Today, it is Daffney's Birthday and she was also a dog. I do not mind being a dog if I get to get my day.

The trip...

Bubbles \(^_^)/, I am back from the trip. And, I am here to narrate the experience right from the start to the end of the trip. I had absolutely no sleep the night before the trip. I sat through the night so impatiently and the clock seemed to be moving at snail's pace. Finally, the clock struck 2 A.M. It was time to prepare for the long day ahead. I got up and began to assemble the gear needed.

Insom(a)niac...

Ahoy there! Do I have enough material to write tonight? Maybe. Do I get enough sleep before the upcoming trip? No, definitely not. We have been ticking the 24 hours, 12 hours and 6 hours countdowns before the trip and there is only a hand full of hours left before we set out on this trip. I have been trying to sleep since late afternoon but only in vain. This is my one and only trouble before any trip. I just cannot close my eyes and rest. So, I am here finally to do some scribbling to you, Bubbles \(^_^)/

Ending the lull...

The countdown has been set. I have 24 hours to prepare for this. As you know my birthday is coming up this weekend. *If you know what I mean* *Grins* The countryside is calling us. A ride through the most dangerous roads await us. With the tarmac only spanning the width of one vehicle, we are venturing through those roads on my "birthday", Bubbles \(^_^)/. The engine has been overhauled in the "lorry". It is the first major road trip in almost half a year. What awaits us is to be witnessed first-hand this weekend.

Lost and found...

It is you my Love. It is you, I seek. It is you that matters. It is our Love that matters. Everything else can remain in tatters. How foolish I have been to lock down the altar to ward off some prying eyes? Instead, I would rather keep those rats aside and focus on your august presence. I see you investing on select pictures in your account. I am investing in words that will make our love profound. So that, when we both play the "Lost and found" game, we shall treasure our bond.

Between you and me...

To ward off the stalkers, I had set this blog to appear only to our eyes. Bubbles \(^_^)/ , this feels a little awkward now. I am not sure if you would accept the request and visit the altar. Until that is cleared, I feel like I am talking to myself. Crazy, it is. It has been a really long time since we found space for ourselves. Maybe, this is a chance to create our own space as well. Just you and me, only our thoughts for ourselves without having to be hindered by any external or paternal or material influences that seem to be restricting us nowadays.

A symbol called "The question mark"...

Amidst bloody prying eyes, I try to reach out to you. Not withstanding the urge to smash those eyes to trinkets of blood, I sit here enraged and fuming. On your side, it should have been a great celebration after the results. Now, a step higher in everything you can think of, I did not post during your day of achievement just to keep my cursed presence away to let you revel in your best of the times. I hope it is safe to make a post now.

The Why and What...

When I question people, they look at "what" is being thrown at them in that question. But, what really matters is, "why" is it being thrown at them in that question". Not just in the questions that I ask people, in any question that we face, it is always wise to look at the "why" than the "what". This is one valuable lesson I have picked up after few lessons in Life. It actually happened after many hard lessons and one priceless chapter from a book. 

Our day...

This winter seems to be the worst ever witnessed by me. Not in terms of temperature, but in terms of circumstances that put me in the freezing cold many times. To fight the anxiety that is fighting inside for what awaits in a couple of days, I ventured out late nights on lone wolf Bike rides. In the recent days, your stress levels seem to be rocketing high as usual. We know it is a good result coming up. Still, we have this anxiety gripping till it is officially out.

The saint...

Hey Baby, hey Bubbles! My Bubbles!!! Bubbles \(^_^)/ Come on. Get ready. We have a beautiful celebratory mood breaking out as the weekend dawns. Party harder, scream louder, dance nonstop, sound our victory to all possible corners, explode in this exciting mood, do not let anyone behind in this bandwagon. 

Alien...

Looking into your eyes, I see my entire world encapsuled within. When I see you smile, I find how happiness so abundant is well within reach. When I seek refuge in your presence, I find how expansive your heart is. To this alien on exile, you gave shelter and seldom denied anything. 

Better late than never...

They who deny Love shall never find Love and they who deny hate shall never find hate. Isn't it interesting to find it contradictory to what actually happens? Also,  have you wondered  as to where you are running from me, Bubbles? Hey Bubbles, running away from your Love is only taking you to someone whom you will have to willingly or unwillingly "pretend" to love just for the sake of living the rest of your Life.

Supremacy...

I have seen many opportunists come and go. I have seen many fates turn upside down. I have witnessed many people rise up from nothing. And, I have seen many people being abandoned like nothing. So, when I say this, you may get two possible opinions about me. One, I seem to talk like I know everything. Two, I talk what I have seen or come across. If your opinion is the former, welcome to those who oppose me all the time or think I hate to be "proved wrong" i.e., those who think or perceive that I am here to prove what others say as wrong and make my point stand. If your opinion is the latter, then I have not met you till date or let me welcome myself because I have not come across anyone who has had an opinion on the latter side and it me who see myself that way which is what I am. 

To die for...

Last night I came across an interesting dialogue while watching a movie and it caught me by surprise at that hour. It was like, there was a random scene and this guy suddenly says "If Man hasn't found something he is willing to die for, then he isn't fit to live". So true. I do not take credit for that guy being so male chauvinistic in saying "Man". *Winks* Having known your preferences, if I were to deliver that dialogue, I would have safely put it as "he/she". 

Bubbled... (revisited)

Again, a post from the 2015 archives. And, recreated for the same reason as mentioned in the previous post. Bubbles \(^_^)/, I do this because I cannot part with even a single word or anything that is from you. Now, my readers can revisit the posts they wished to comment but were not able to do so earlier and comment on what you have to say about those posts that have been flying around since early December, 2017. *Winks* Cheers!

You, Me and Our Love... (revisited)

This is a post from the archives of 2015. I apologise for repeating old content but, I have no option than to recreate this to avoid you deleting your own comment from this actual post. Oh, what habit is that?! Also, I apologise for asking for comments when the comments section was hidden. *facepalm moment* From now on, my readers who have been so eager to read these posts of recent can comment "anonymous" if you do not wish to reveal your identity. Welcome aboard. Let me see what response I get now. Those who have been following my posts very well know what "response" I am talking about.

Daffney...

Two years ago, she lay there unable to move on her own. For nearly two months, she had been completely dependent on me for everything. She had spent her entire life span of 12 years staying by my side irrespective of anything that came our way. She drew her last breath lying down in my hands. Today marks the second Death anniversary of Daffney- the timeless legend.

Pomp and show...

Yo girl, Wassup Babe? Isn't it time enough to party? Aren't you getting ready for it yet? What took you so long to dress-up? Come on, it is high time we join everyone and celebrate this wonderful day with all pomp and show. Flaunt 'em all, just set the stage on fire. Let's walk the ramp together. And, let's romp the dance floor and rule this fine evening. 

My fairy Maiden...

My fairy maiden, let's embrace and embolden...

I have my cavalry sporting the best ever livery...

I am all set to conquer this with utmost chivalry...

The quest for Love is full of bravery...

Any such rebellion is mere treachery...

My Post...

Tears don't matter anymore. Whenever there are tearful eyes, I make sure to get rid of that reaction by the organ that keeps secreting this fluid. I assess the situation that made me end up so low and I convince myself with words people have used at me to describe me. Of course, not in the good sense, people have simply cursed and I use them to convince myself. This post is not for you Bubbles \(^_^)/ . Please do not read it. And, this I say not for you to think I am playing tricks to make you read it. This, simply is for me. Not you. Stay off and enjoy "The Love in us". *Smiles*

The Love in us...

Although it has been years since then, the day still feels fresh as it appears to be fresh for eternity. It was, it is, and it will be our day forever. The day we both experienced for the first time ever. To you and me, to both our hearts that became one, the moments we lived, the words we shared, the gestures we exchanged, the calmness we sat through, to everything pleasant we had that day, we will continue to live it all the time.

Oh, results...

Bubbles \(^_^)/ Less than a fortnight to go. I feel excited and at the same time anxiety is gripping me equally. The result is already known to me. The anxiety is all about what lies after that. Excitement is, of course inevitable. Wow! Celebrations, greetings, parties, everything around the corner. I do not know how you are going to manage all of them. 

Our Life, our time...

This is our Life, our time. Why let tyranny take over our true shades? Isn't it time to overthrow this with an uprising? Isn't it time to fight back with an overwhelming upheaval? For, they are almost done with their time and life, yet failing to reap any benefit out of their sustenance till date. This is our Life, our time. 

The night ride...

In the stillness of the night, with words ready to flow and reach you, with your presence felt all over the altar, I see that you are not sleeping on time nowadays. Maybe I spoilt you by scribbling through the night or it should be something else that is keeping you awake. Rest until dawn, rise up and run after that. But, never try to enter this world of darkness that the humans call as night. If it is in search of me, I shall make it easier for you if you let me know.

Oh, remix...

Ah, Friday! Holy day! Finally, breathing some fresh air and doing all that I was restricted to do in the past few days makes me feel much better. Watering the plants, cleaning the "lorry", a short ride in the morning, oh wait! Is this what made me recover so fast? You bet it is a big NO! Whatever brought me back was the sign from the heaven's angel. Oh! I can't wait to tell how it was. Wow! What a........................?

Kaaviyam paadavaa thendrale...

For the display picture you have in the places I can see you, I have this song that I want to sing to you. It also becomes a perfect song to match my circumstances as well. I know you would not prefer old songs. But, if you do feel like trying it out, then here's the song. "Kaviyam paadavaa thendrale" from the movie Idhayathai Thirudathae. Having fallen sick for three times since Dec. 2, every time I see your display picture, I feel this song playing in the background.

The Case of drowning...

It was a foggy morning. All of a sudden there was a sense of panic all around. People were moving  the equipment to the spot and a rescue team was rushing to the spot where something had happened just minutes ago. A crowd had gathered hindering the work that had to be done. While the crowd was being cleared, there appeared something partially drowned. The equipment was moved to reach it. And, there was more shock to it.

My Duchess...

To keep churning post after post, to keep chugging along with you like there is no limit, it all feels so magical. Irrespective of where we are today, let us clap hands and snap fingers and travel together. This journey has only a start. That is the beauty of it. There is no destination as such. Come. Let me show you what I see and you do the proceedings with regard to what you see as well.

We day!...

I still cannot believe it has been four years since our first V-day. Wow! What a gift that is?! And, when I realise our fifth V-day is approaching fast, my eyeballs literally are popping out. It is marking nearly half a decade of our everything. Wow, as I sit with that gift every time, it completely stuns me as to how much effort you have put in to craft it.

Endurance...

"Why do you sit like a stone and wait for her to appear? It is time for her to wake up. Why don't you complete your task first to at least give her something for the day?", beamed the voice from within. There was still no movement. "It is of course so painful to keep thinking about all that you have come across. But, why make her wait? Finish the task in hand first. Spend the remaining time for yourself. Always, give before you want to take. So, write before you want to see her", the voice kept mounting pressure. Finally, the hands reached the keyboard.

Strange dreams...

Not all the time I feel like writing. I sometimes feel like reading too. Those words you gave me. Good and bad, happy and sad, those posts you specially crafted for me, gives me quite a relief. Yet, I do feel something fresh from your side would make it a lot better. Even if it is just few lines, I would like to read from you. Huh, what strange dreams I have, right?

Not just a girl... Never...

To keep up my energy reserves, I need to wander far and wide, roam the unknown, tread paths unexplored, seek refuge in the unseen, find what I came for and return safe and sane to be back and fire up the signalling towers in the hope of staying in this hunt. All those who are carrying you far from me are failing to take you away from me. All those who wish to take you away from me will never see daylight when I strike.

In silence...

If it is called silence, then it is according to the world. To us, it is our license to talk to each other. In this noiseless ecosystem we rule, we talk, we share, we live and we thrive. The entire world and its pointless purpose against letting us be united can just blindly go fishing, let us just enjoy this silence. For, who they thought are to be silenced are always bonded, and who they thought to have had the upper hand are finding themselves branded, as the arrogant hypocrites.

The One...

Who's the one? Who's your one? The one. When everything falls apart and everyone walks far, if you still see this someone, then, they are the one. Your true and special one. The one who would stay and would never be a stray, the one who would shield and never would yield, the one you would say to be the one you would play, is your one.

Battling out the odds...

In our journey towards success, we are not assured of anything but strife. Yes, what is gain without any pain? In this pursuit, we need to stay focused because in the due course, we are bound to face many challenges, hurdles, hindrances and sometimes even dead-ends. But, is that what we started this hunt for? If there is a dead-end, we have to find a way to bypass it and not end the hunt altogether. For, our destination should not keep changing every now and then if we are in pursuit of success or if we want our pursuit to end in success.

Without a start...

My Life is over, I said. Everyone argued with me saying I was wrong in saying so. They kept asking me why I have come to conclusions even before I have started my Life. I do not have the energy to be in this argument. They have something to cling to in their Life or they are gifted with everything I have been denied of. Hence, I understood their views and kept quiet. But, I do realise. What did I say? My Life is over? Oh, yes. I am wrong.

Midway...

So, we are half way through. A month ago were the exams and a month from now are the results. It was so tense during the exams, so tense now and will be much more tense in a month's time. But, once results are out, you are about to reach an all new level in your career. The very level you have been striving to reach in spite of all these chaos and confusion.

Head down...

Head down in shame, in this tiny world of mine, shadowed by the massive spaces owned by people, sometimes I wonder if I am a murderer of dreams- the ones that originate in my near and dear. What good is this eagerness to make everyone happy if all that I end up is creating widespread apathy? While people who see my Life term it disgusting, imagine how it feels having to live this life first hand?

The Spark...

We are growing. Growing by the day, growing stronger. What was a year ago has now become few years ago. Our togetherness, its age is also growing stronger. What was a year old is now few years old. Soon, we will be hitting a decade since we acquainted each other. OMG! A decade? Seriously? So much yet so little, so long yet so near, so far yet so dear. Bubbles \(^_^)/

The Walk...

It was early 2002. I was so interested to go for a walk. And, I prepared myself for the walk and started my journey. I was in my early teenage and I was eager to go for the walk of my life. All excited I started to walk in a slow and steady pace. With so much eagerness and curiosity, I had many visuals and imaginations about how the walk would be. Or, the dreams I had for how my walk has to be.

The Sun, Moon and... am marooned...

I sat all night long looking towards the horizon to see the sun rise at dawn. Although I know the sun would not rise anytime earlier than it is supposed to, I still sat there looking. Now, that is foolishness. I know. In fact, the sun never rises not does it set. It is the Earth that revolves and causes this. In the name of science, many ancient beliefs have been silenced. But, isn't it this lame science that taught us early in our schooling days that the sun rises in the east and sets in the west? Isn't science foolish then?

Courage...

When suddenly the flow of words stop, when the collisions in the head come to an end, when the voices inside calm down to deafening silence, when the eyes stop searching for the elusive, when the noises outside make no more impact, when existence makes no more sense, when the darkness totally clouds the vision, when breathing becomes a burden altogether, when the heart beat slows down to a mere murmur, I shall still find courage to further my foray.

Act of valour...

It is the world's envy upon us. Our togetherness in everything, our love and care for each other, our way of life in spite of our strife, all these has brought upon the envy I am talking about. But, does it matter if people envy us? We treat them as "others". Do they really need any attention? No, they do not. But, we do. We need to pay attention to each other as we do so in every passing moment of our Life.

Porcupine?... Oh, Come on...

Porcupine? Seriously, Oh, come on Bubbles. Porcupine or whatever rhyming to it, you do not match the description at all and you will never match it. So, again I ask, Porcupine? Oh, come on Bubbles. Scrap it. I still do not understand how you could come up with such a term. Still, the least time you spend looking at yourself in the mirror itself is enough to dismiss such thoughts from your head. 

Friday...

Friday! And, it is the day for them to meet. As if by magic, it always happens on a Friday. Both of them were born on a Friday as well. She never believed in such special days. For her, everyday is a good day. He always celebrates Fridays especially if it was for a meet on that day. Hurriedly, they got up, got ready and started to meet each other after a few months break. 

Dot Dot Dot...

These are times that ask for a lot of belief and faith in ourselves. So much so that the heights of our belief and faith would make people think we are insane. Well, it is actually the proportions that are insane. If we cling to sanity in everything, it is inevitable that everything in us would be labelled as perishable. Is everything in us perishable? Can we let it be so? Because, there are certain things in us that we carry with us even after parting this mortal remains.

One long mile...

Hmmmm... 

How long has it been since a heartspeak with you. 

How beautiful it feels to confide in you. 

Time and again, the way you mesmerise me with your charm, every time it is a new feel. 

Oh celestial beauty, stop by me and let me witness a smile. 

Even if it is just once in a while, I will happily walk that one long mile.

I live in you...

Does your heart beat or is it just pumping? Does your body feel or is it just numbing? Do you eat or do you just keep chewing? Do you sleep or do you just keep rolling? Do you weep or does tears just keep falling? Do you think or does your mind do the routine? Do you meet or does your people just keep counting? Most of all, do you live or are you just existing?

What is Love?...

No.No. This is simply not acceptable. This is not how it should be happening. The heart cannot come to terms. The mind is not able to rest.  Patience is afteral only limited. Yet, time is continuing its test. This was not a casual ask. Neither was it supposed to be such a daunting task. Now, looks like we both are stuck in this permafrost. In all, this bond is certain to last. 

My Rising Sun...

The sun is a star shining bright in this galaxy like many other stars do. Yet, to the earthlings this particular star is the life giver and hence is given special importance to such an extent that the sun is treated as if it is different from all other stars that we see in the night sky. To the earthlings the sun is a big ball of fire and is worshipped as God but other stars are treated as mere twinkling dots in the sky.

Silencing Violence...

From the movie, The Imitation Game, there is a beautiful mention about violence and why humans find it so attractive. After having been a subject of violence in our Life, should we not take some time to discuss about it and what I had done to avoid further violence? If you feel like joining me in this, welcome aboard Bubbles \(^_^)/. 

The Woman I saw...

Oh my, these words are not exhausting. It just keeps on flowing. I take a deep breath and continue to keep my eyes closed to see your smile, see you poking fun in your classical way, to remember the poses you try during the clicks, the way you ask me to step aside and let you do the clicking, ah! all the good stuff.

An incident...

Bubbles \(^_^)/ I see you there. Whom are you hiding from? Behind the veil of mist, I can see you walk along and sometimes walk ahead of me. After having hidden 'A walk with my words', after having culling the appearance of those treasured images from timeline, after being denied access from all these mediums, I can still see you walking with me. That, is the very reason why I let go of all these mediums upon realising that they are of no good than just causing bitterness in the guise of a sweet bridge.