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Today, I would like to clarify few things as to why people call me a saint. It makes me laugh whenever I come across that term because to be a saint requires giving up on desires and all it takes is to only roam around physically or mentally in search of a way to quench the spiritual thirst. But, I do not seek that. Still, I am being termed a saint. And, upon introspecting I found out why they seem to be calling me alike. So, what is it? Why is it so? And, when will it change?

Firstly, I am no saint. I have my own wish lists and I am someone who is forcefully being held back from reaching where I want to reach. To blindly dive in, this is not my swimming pool at the backyard. It is more of unknown depths. So, I play the waiting game. This waiting game is often seen by people as a tendency to be living without interest as such. Hence, they call me a saint. But, I know when to strike. I strike only when conditions are ripe. By doing so, I save on a lot of time and effort and sometimes even a lot of money involved. How did I learn this? Of course the hard way, by losing a lot of time and effort earlier in my Life or by seeing people fall for anything and everything they come across in their Life.

Secondly, I am still no saint. Yes. I am not. I do not live on anyone else's money. Not even my own siblings. Of course, until I became a full-fledged person I lived out of my parents' money. Today, I have rested my parents fully. I live on my own. The scale of achievements or the scale of materialistic pleasures might be smaller but I live on my own. I am no dependent today. In fact, I have been on my own for a couple of years or even more. I pump my own funds even if I have no sources of funds. I manage the expenses on my own. I am simply on my own. This attribute in a way makes people think I have denounced materialistic pleasures altogether. Well, I like to earn on my own to enjoy all the materialistic pleasures that I seek. Even in the days of being a have-not, I ride a gorgeous 'lorry' which is a dream for many haves till date. So, imagine my scale of desires when I become one among the haves. *Winks*

Thirdly, I stand on my own feet. Of course, unless you are physically challenged, everyone stands on their own feet. Well, if you get the actual meaning I am referring to, I am ready to continue further. Before I continue further, I would offer my deep respects for those who are physically challenged because I did not mean to hurt them with my previous statement. So, I stand on my own. As in, I do not go running behind people to get my things done. If there is a challenge, I face it by myself. I do not route myself to some wealthy or authoritarian big shot and try and get it done through ill means. I have my own achievements in this way and I am happy about it. I will offer help but I never stand in line to get help. I do not budge to any manly authority. I fear only my creator. To be built alike, I am being called a saint. Well, place your hand on top of your skull and screw it 10 times clockwise or anti-clockwise and rip your connections off.

Fourthly, I am putting this on the fourth and not the first because I do not want to play the blame game. Yes, I have not materialised or achieved much till date but I have the list alive. I do not just play the blame game and move on to something else just because it did not materialise in the first place or attempt. I make sure before I accomplish it even if it is late. I make sure it is better late than never. And, just because I do not blame and since I take a neutral stance and analyse the circumstances and go into fact-finding, people think I have deviated from the path or task. Heck, no! If something did not work out, do not run from it. I make sure I persist and prevail and after all this fact-finding, I nail it in the next chance. It takes time at times but the task is done at least. I do not leave anything in the checklist unticked.

Fifthly, I do not settle like the silt in a lake. Silt settles in the depths if the water is calm. These people settle themselves just for the sake of it because everything around them seems to be settled. Who cares to go the extra mile? Not many. Well, I do not satisfy myself with what I have or what I get. I do not simply act like the normal rats that settle for 3 meals a day and sleep like pigs cozy in a mattress just because there is a fat pay cheque. I keep increasing my bar higher even if I have not achieved my previous target(s) yet. By doing so, I am bound to keep failing initially but all it takes is one success to fly past all the previous targets and the current one. So, when I speak of this, they call me a saint. What seems to be an unrealistic target for them because of them not even being able to think alike, they can simply play the naming game and call me a saint. All this with some spiritual inclination is making them easier to keep calling me a saint.

Lastly, I polish my shoes a lot more than giving a damn to what they call me. Yes, I do not care what names people give me. I am full of attitude. This attitude is bad. Bad, only if I have achieved and settled in Life. Since I am battling many odds and trying to keep my spirit alive and kicking, I need an attitude. Not to fuel my spirit but to fuel the "burn" moments for all the critics. I can pick and drop this attitude as when I need. So, as far as this attitude shields me from any harm from these critics and pricks, I will wear this. For this, they say I talk like I know "everything". Yes, I know "everything". I know it as a word. But, to know everything, I am not the person. And, I am no saint as such. When in my prime, I shall think about giving you all a dime. Just a dime and that too for having taken the effort to keep giving me the names, especially the saint.

One good thing about this post is, I can have this link saved and paste it on the foreheads of all those who may potentially call me with such names. I can save a lot of time from now on. Done and dusted. Time to increase the bar and keep taking chances and staying in the hunt. -rPhoenix