Dust seems to be settling on many things around here. Many remain untouched, there are no movement of people anymore, this place remains locked either from inside or outside and is not open anymore. It all boils down to one final thought now. Will one act of insanity wipe out all acts of atrocities on me? This is no million dollar question but, a priceless question. All it takes is one act, nothing more and nothing less. Whether it is insane or the most logical, it can only be answered by time.
When a barrel holding a 100 litres is overflowing, we do not get to see the entire 100 litres overflow. It is only what is beyond the capacity of the barrel that is overflowing. Until it reached its maximum capacity, it did not show any signs of overflowing. Likewise, when a person is seen to be overflowing with something, isn't it only the excess that is overflowing? It can be an emotion or feeling or simply words. I find myself overflow a lot nowadays. I try to assess the maximum capacity of myself but, what keeps overflowing, continues to do so.
One act of insanity, wait, this insanity is according to those who are normal. I mean, to those who are normal, it can be termed insanity. But, to the one who is committing, it might well be the most logical option. So, can one act of insanity wipe out all the acts of atrocities on me? Will it give entry into another world where things could be a lot more peaceful? I am more worried about the guilt that would be in the minds of people who would come to know of this act of insanity. If they can take time to tell me that there would be no such guilt, insanity becomes logic at that very moment. But, who would care to clarify that?
When no one cares to clarify on that, it brings the question if I should care about the guilt that may arise in their minds if this act of insanity is performed. There are crossroads. And, this act of insanity is one of the roads I can take. It appears like an expressway free from all chaos and noise but, it is also a one-way journey to a point of no return. Amidst prevailing chaos and noise through the other roads, logic says there is need for backing and support in tonnes to continue. But, with no response coming from the beacons, how can one be assured of support, let alone backing, for, it never existed.
To those who promised to stay, to those who wished to stay, to those who left in dismay, to those who may come to know of this, let there be no guilt in you all. Sometimes, what appears logical has to be executed, nobody likes to water a non-flowering plant in a garden and thus, you have all quit from here. Let it be alike. Let it not invoke any hard feelings. I know you do not care but the reason for mentioning this is, I do care. Even after being distanced or abandoned, I do care. Let there always be light, let there always be bright sunshine to support more flowers in your garden, let there be no repent, for, this act of insanity would occur only after decades of struggle and pain.
When Life throws lemons at you, learn to make lemonade with it. But, mere lemons do not give you lemonade. You need water, sugar, salt, a vessel and so on. And, these will be the support and backing that I am talking about. So, if Life keeps throwing lemons and only lemons, I guess logic would support to erode your presence using the acidity of the lemon. The level of uncertainty right now is such that it could only be a matter of days or weeks to act. Although I possess the button, I will wait to see how far it goes and if circumstances have the force to push the button, then it becomes what we call the inevitable.
So, once again, to all those who left, when you turn back, I mean, if you turn back, let it be like what I have mentioned above. Let there be no guilt, instead tell yourself that just like how you all moved on previously, continue to Live Life to the fullest. Let your light shine. -rPhoenix
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