The visit. It is done now. I had mentioned about the elaboration of the emotions while visiting the places of interest in the upcoming post. And, I am here just to pen down what I had to go through back there in just one day. Nobody gives a spoon if anyone cares about this post or not. If you are not interested, you should remind yourself as to how pointlessly you have been stalking this space for so long and bleed to death through your vents. I do not guarantee anything here because this is not your favourite TV show and you are not paying for what you are reading here. So, keep that fishing rod ready and engage yourself if you are feeling otherwise.
It was a gloomy day, perfectly matching the mindset I had for the day. The places were all listed and it was time to visit them one by one to send daggers piercing as I catch the spots, scenes and moments one by one as it happened once versus what I was seeing that day. I wanted to start with the place where I first saw you. I went there, parked the ride in the same place, walked just like that day and moved the ride to the place where I saw you for the first time. Everything matched except what my eyes were wanting to see.
Next, it was our first meeting place, right in the middle of the street, that lane, that place where I waited to hear you talk to me for the first time in person. It was like every time I bat my eyelid, I saw you walk with your accomplice but when I opened my eyes, I saw something else. Then, I walked to the extent of our walks and stood in that place where it happened. The promise. It appeared a little too strange for everyone to look at me as to what I was doing there but, to me, it was like drowning into a sink hole of emotions.
Next in the list was the place where I shook your hand for the first time in a Mall and handed over a gift. That place, the corridor, the parking lot, the first Cafe visit, the walk to the Cafe's "Lounge", phew! that was the most painful of all, I am not describing what exactly happened there as it was nothing short of running out of breath and sitting with absolutely no hope. But, there were other places to visit. And, I kept pushing myself to see if it would be the last of all days.
Later on, I went on to the Cafe where we previously met, running two hours late than the mentioned time. Somewhere, at least in some way, my eyes were longing to catch a glimpse of you in real and not as mirages. I had visited almost all the places by now and it was time to let all the daggers do the damage. With no interest, an order was placed and in no time, they were gone.
The time had come to wind up everything and visit the temples to find some hope. So, the late evening with the arrival of the rain gave some hope during the temple visits. It was almost time to start the return journey and as you know, there was a great deal of silence from your side which made everything worse for the overnight journey ahead. I know you would sulk and look away thinking, "Did I ask you to do all those?" and such kind of great questions which are not of any interest to me now after how the day had gone past. This is like, if "A" is not of interest to you, "B" is not of interest to me. To each, his/her own, they say.
I had bagged a lot of visuals by now and a great deal of silence from you. All I had was simply nothing to look forward to. The loyal companion and the partner in crime, the 'lorry' saw me through all these and after a short ride, I was back to my shell- I mean, the place they call home. The extent of anger, frustration, pain, distress, and everything that shaped me that day will definitely give me answers soon from those who have been standing like boulders in my way. With predecessors of no use and giving utter displeasure, it is time to deliver the punch in few days. -rPhoenix
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