Eyes closed...

These are long nights with absolutely freezing temperatures outside. The night's chill is still not enough to put me to sleep. It feels nice to lie down but it is not anywhere nearer to attaining a peaceful sleep. There is a lot going on inside. A lot of questions, doubts and what not. I can set them aside easily nowadays because of the recent habit that I am so fond of. It is this habit that is keeping me so hooked nowadays. And, it has a lot to do with you, Bubbles \(^_^)/

The night is the perfect period to lie down and think about all those moments, going through all the conversations we have had, closing my eyes and wandering around with you, living an entirely different Life altogether in a world of our own, picking memories in random and living them time and again, this new addiction is so lively that I forget time and spend almost the entire night doing this. Every time I open my eyes, I feel so energetic and almost ready to run to you to live them all in reality once again.

Of what value you are to me, not only as a person but also as these intangible entities of memories, voices and so on, is best known only to me. In spite of your silence, this habit has not faded because I can also sit with you and find out what could have forced you to remain silent of recent and there is no way of me finding it out. So, there is no eventual end to this particular conversation and I can go on and on wondering about your recent behaviour. Well, wild fantasies, sweet dreams, crazy desires are also part of this but, they do not require a mention here for now.

For the past few days, to feed further more into this venture, I have brought back a social media platform once again where we had spent most of our time conversing. I can read any random talk of ours and then close my eyes and go back in time and relive the same once again or as many times as I want. Almost half a million texts to go through and you can imagine how much is in there to close my eyes and ponder over.

Not just the past, I pick up visuals from the future and design it to the maximum perfection as possible so that when the moment arrives, I need not stand there blinking like this cursor awaiting further input to move on. Babe, for how long do you think we can just be enslaved? For how long do you think this silence will prevail? I have asked these questions for long enough. It is your chance to give me the answers.

In the due process of this habit, I have taken you through my Rose gardens, drenched you fully, played with Juju of the past and the future, taken those walks we have taken and the ones we have planned, visited places of interest with utmost happiness and so on. Oh, by the way, there are nearly five roses from one single plant getting ready for our Acceptance Day coming soon. All the flowers will be shown to you as and when they start blooming. And, after having revived the plant from an infestation, I cannot wait to see them in full bloom for our special day. Also in line are other Rose plants that are getting ready with their blooms. So, Bubbles \(^_^)/

I have no idea why I made this post. I had opened my eyes from a visual and felt I need to let you know about this and here we are. I hope to hear from you soon. Awaiting your word. -rPhoenix