Dot Dot Dot

Hmmm... Nothing seems to be interesting me nowadays. Mood swings. Lack of interest. What else? The previous post was about pouring out, now it is about how I have not been able to find anything interesting. I went to get updates on topics like automobiles, gadgets, etc., But, not even one video I completed watching fully and not even one article was fully read. Now, I am with music. I feel like playing the songs at faster play speed. Which one should I choose? 1.5x or 2x? I rather close the jukebox and sit. To sit idle is like sitting on a hot stove now. So, here I am.

A thousand miles...

I feel like crying out. I want to pour it out. But, there is no one around. There is a heaviness inside that is consuming my inner self. There is a sense of guilt, pain and frustration that is trying to rob me of the little that I have in hand. I might have used words earlier that might have sounded like curses but, they are not alike. For whatever I have been holding inside, there is no way to express it through words. It is something that can only be experienced and not spoken out. This is something that the Gods have to answer.

Infinity and beyond...

There are lots riding on us. How much importance do others play in that is just a fraction when compared to how many lives are impacted by our actions. Be it negative or positive, the impact remains constant. Some people make us feel good and some make us feel bad. It could be in matters that connect us with ourself. In that way, you came in and made me feel connected with something that impacted me in many ways. Are we heading for a showdown here?

Matters of the heart...

You are the morning dream I wake up to. You are the first thought in my conscious state. You are the priority I work towards. You are the force that I look out for. You are my voice that echoes far. You are the dream that I crave for. You are my Love, you make me fine. You are that source of light, my eternal sunshine. Bubbles \(^_^)/ 

Revelation...

I am here to make a revelation. I guess this post will never end. This is about my more than three decades of existence. I am not here to complain or lament. I am here to reveal, just that and nothing more or less. Of all that I have come across, of all that I have been subject to. I will take my time to add content. So, this post does not end with today. It will be a question and answer session with myself.

Let us start this. 

The trophy...

I am here for bragging rights. Yes, they are mine this time. All of them mine to be taken. What happens when you are at an all time low and when there is a New Year coming up and you do not want anything to go negative, no matter how irrelevant or trivial it maybe to your course of progress? I will tell you what happened couple of days back when I came across one such trivial or irrelevant, yet crucial incident for the upcoming New Year.

The ace...

It is just couple of hours into the New Year, 2019. I have a handful of lessons already coming into this year. At the stroke of midnight came the first lesson. With the year still having a lot more to offer, it is the entry with a lot from the previous year that is keeping the mind a little occupied. Until the stroke of midnight was an anxiety anticipating the birth of a New Year. Once the moment has gone past, it is amazing how we immediately go into packing our bags with all the lessons learnt so far in Life and mustering all the positivity for the year ahead.