This has been waiting for quite a long time now. Every time I scribble, I do it mostly from my point of view. I just scribble to bring out what is bothering me from inside. And, while I have been doing that, I always wonder about one thing, but it has not happened till now as to how or what goes on on the other side I care about?! Also, my scribbling aligning with my gender will not be from my opposite gender's perspective obviously. So, let me try analysing this aspect which has kept me guessing for more than a decade now.
Having recently opened the archives which contain those precious words you etched in your version of this altar, it made me take this up real serious and try to find where this leads to. So, what goes on in your mind and heart or what is it like to see things from your perspective? I wonder. In a world that is dominated by one gender and their opinions and decisions, how do you manage yours?
Always having been influenced by the dominant gender's orders that you cannot control, what must have been your mental state and how are those emotions still being contained inside and what toll has it had on your smiles and the miles in Life? The heart that wanted to do or be something or someone else but having to force yourself to obey those 'orders' stuffed upon and into you, how in the world did you face that? How did you brace yourself for many a dreaded impact that has altered your desired course of Life? How did you cope with all these while still having to face this world and its patriarchs?
Having felt the tender and delicate inside of your heart, I am clueless as to how do you do it? What goes on in your mind, body, heart and soul to face such extremes and still put up a smile? I guess it has started showing up in your face nowadays because I know your true smile and the ones I have seen of late are either absent or fake. I know your lovely dreams and desires and how much you were looking forward to creating many memories and events in Life. But, with the way things have gone, I cannot even guess or think or comprehend the level of pain, struggles and poisoning you had to do to cull those true desires that actually make you my Bubbly Munchkin \(^_^)/
I have heard of the strife from your previous generation and always wanted to somehow change it and let you enjoy Life and teach the previous generation infinite lessons to live Life to the fullest. But, in the path you are right now without any liberation or without stepping out into this vast world, without experiencing what you actually desire and deserve, simply trapped in the materialistic Life and its so-called satisfaction.... I have to bow down, salute and respect your resilience. You have shown me how beautiful you are inside and out despite all these external factors which I have never come across.
That is one strong heart, biting bullets and chewing them off like it was not fired at you. That is one pure soul that is still remembering so much and somehow finding courage to do what is needed. That is one divine body that has been subject to what it is not meant for. That is one fast mind that has to process so much to stay afloat and keep trying not to totally enslave yourself. My QLB \(^_^)/ - From the Baby Girl to the Woman you are, hats off! You do make me feel so proud. I have so many streams flowing across my thought process and what I have captured with the flow are these words above. I still wonder, I know I will not be able to find it but what am I if I do not write a tribute to my Lady Love?!- rPhoenix
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