Oh, I have got the answers. Now, what? The game has begun only now. Until now, there was a cloud of mystery covering everything. With the wraps off the suspense elements comes the urge to fight and win your hand. Let the words flow and be filtered. There will be a way emerging out of that. Whom do I talk to? Where do I seek guidance? It is all here that I have to pour. I have to pour all the words and sift through them to find all the guidance and support all by myself. I am ready to do that. I am ready to do anything and everything that will clear your doubts.
I could have spoken a lot with you, to you and about you. I could have argued. Let us put it in your way. Arguments and not discussions. Let it be. I could have run away after that and done this and that. But, why? There are reasons and there are excuses and there are fears and there are facts. I will give you reasons and facts. No time for excuses nor fears anymore. I spoke a lot. Why? To offend you or hurt you? No. It was because I had the freedom to be so open to you. I never felt any inhibition towards opening up to you.
You cry foul about arguments. True. We argued but why? Just to bring back all your bitter memories about your predecessors? No. It was because of that freedom to discuss anything and everything in detail. You tamed me. You taught me. I learnt how to talk only upon socialising with you. Just like how you grew up ignorant about the outer world, I grew up without any flirting with my opposite sex. Today, you may come across many finished products in the outer world that can talk so well to opposite sex because they have all been through extensive socialising in their earlier days. I was raw. I was fresh. I may not react like those smart guys out there.
I might have appeared to be running away and all that you described. Why? The moment I sense that I have hurt you, I try to avoid further hurt for that moment and I inflict damage on myself. It was never an intention to run away. If running away was the intention, then why would I still be here? Why would I even meet him? Why would I stick around you all the time? That doubt you have saying what if I run away in the middle of our Life?! I agree that my action gave way to such a doubt to arise. But, just ask yourself why would I run away when you are with me? Today, I am on the run only to reach you. Not to go away from you. These very words stand evidence for that.
Reflecting upon your fears should have been done. But, you never revealed them. You kept them safely concealed till date. Now, this is not a statement of blame. It is instead just how things happened between us. So, how am I supposed to know about all these fears and doubts? But, now that I know them, I have my ways to kill those fears and make you feel all the Love that has been sidelined inside of you. All that hatred, all that circumstantial reactions, all that bitterness, all that grudge that you said, all that heat, all that friction, all those that appear to try and part our ways will fail. I stand by our Love and its sanctity,. True Love will never fade. It will find its ways to emerge out of whatever challenges that may come.
In all the millions and billions of years of Life's existence, hate is only an element to understand Love better. Only Love defines the survival of Life through generations. Every species reproduces and ensures its future generation's survival through Love and not with hate. Thus, let us embrace Love and distance hate.
You told me how you do not feel anything with anyone else. I know the underlying reason for that. No excuses nor fears. Only facts. And, that fact is the most powerful of all. It is the truth. It is the sanctity of our Love. It is the expectations that are standing in the way. I may delay but never deny. The delay being unintentional but the delivery will be with Love. Our time is here. I see all these as a way to clear the veil and attain clarity.
I never give up. I will push. I will push further and further. I am pushing harder than before. We will enjoy the fruits of these efforts. We will show these circumstances how true Love triumphs. Am not an advocate of Love. I am the advocate of our bonding. That supreme emotion that brings us together at regular intervals and keeps us on track towards Together Forever. These words might make sense or may not. They are dumped here for a reason. As I do this, I am picking up the possible ways to win your hand. The more answers I get, the more precise will be our course of progress. -rPhoenix
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